April 3rd, 2021
I always want to be peppy when it comes time for the Weekly Wrap, but I have to admit it’s a little harder this week. Keep reading for bunny updates, life updates, and just a little bit of everything.
Life Beyond the Blog
So, the big thing right now is this: we may be reaching the end of the line with one of my bunnies. His health problems are beginning to worsen, and though we have a vet appointment lined up, it’s starting to look likely that his quality of life is in sheer decline. On the one hand, I know this is just the reality of it. He’s almost ten years old, old for a rabbit, and he has a history of health issues. To be as old as he is is an achievement, and we’ve given him so much time and love along the way. This is just the way nature works.
And on the other hand, we raised him since he was eight weeks old. I have baby pictures of him. I’ve learned all his little habits, know all the goofy things he does, understand all the things his arthritis prevents him from doing. I’m prepared to let him go if he’s in too much pain, and at the very same time, I’ll never be ready. This could be the first time in ten years I’ve said goodbye to a pet, and I feel nothing short of fragile. 💔
I’ll certainly post updates, either in a Weekly Wrap, or on Twitter. I love sharing pictures of the bunnies, and I know people like seeing those pictures, so I’m sure you’ll hear about what happens by the end of next week. But this is the reason I’ve been absent in almost all social forms. Dread and anxiety have taken the wheel, and it’s going to be a bumpy road, even if my sweet old bun stays with us.
I can say, though, that this week has had its positives. If it was all doom and gloom, I’m not sure I would have even had the energy to write this post. But it’s starting to look like I’ll be able to get my COVID vaccine soon, and I’ve learned more and more of my friends have gotten theirs. It’s a relief in so many ways, and I’ve never been so eager to get a shot, especially since I hate needles.
Posts This Week
The Week Ahead
All I can think about for next week is our visit with the vet. I can’t make any promises beyond that, because it’s consuming all my energy. As much as I love books, my rabbits are well and truly my everything. I’m prepared to do anything for them, and the prospect of letting go makes my stomach turn, even if it might end up being the right thing to do.
In an ideal world, I’ll be able to read a book, and sit with my bunnies in a cozy little pile in the living room. And in an ideal world, my handsome old bunny recovers and we get more time with him.
But I can’t see the future, and I just have to take things one day at a time. I have my fingers crossed for the best, but I’m trying to prepare my heart for the worst. More likely than not, this means I won’t be available to chat except for folks close to me, and I appreciate your understanding, especially if I fail to post anything new in the coming days.
I hope this coming week is kinder to you than it is to me and my bunnies. Stay well and spend some time with your pets, friends. 💔